My Angel 

I write to remember loved ones on days like these.
When my eyes are full of yesterday’s sorrows and I cannot see.

I never got to know you, hold you, or see you smile.

Though our time together was limited it was all worth while.

I would do it all again because that meant you were really here.

Sometimes I feel I dreamed it but then the heartache draws near.

I’ll never forget you, I’ll always love you, you will never be replaced. 

I’ll keep you safe in my heart until the moment we can finally embrace. 
-7/9/14-

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I Opened The Bible Today

I opened my Bible today

Which is something I have never done before

Though I am ashamed to say

I read His words for the first time today

I sat alone at my table lost in my merciless thoughts

Only to find comfort in the scripture that had never been taught

I am elated to say

That I opened the Bible today

I didn’t understand when I began but  I read it anyway

It brought a tear to my eye and gave wings to my heart

I opened that Bible today

Though covered in dust and the pages never worn

It provided me with a sense of comfort in a heart that is torn

I opened the Bible today, to find what it had to say, and find hope within the Word

I only hope He shows mercy on my soul and my desperate prayers are heard.

New York

I’ll take a train to New York City
to feel the concrete beneath my feet.

I’ll make the most of this time,
just me, in the city that never sleeps.

I can’t wait to smell the air and watch the people everywhere.

The lights shine so bright day and night
I can see them in my dreams.

The tallest buildings and longest sidewalks are endless, or so it seems.

To be in the middle of the constant rush
will make my heart beat out of my chest.

I will be there someday, in the midst of the beautiful mess.

You and I

If it’s only you that I have in this life I’m satisfied.
If it’s only us at the end it’s been worth the ride.
To say you’re not enough is a lie.
If it’s only you and I.

You’ve proved yourself to me time and time again.
When I’m down in the dark you always grab my hand.
Life is a bitch and so much of that is true.
But I can say it’s been beautiful beside you.

So let’s see where this will go, hang on tight.
You and I can make it.
It’s all worth the fight.

Our love is strong, patient and kind.
If it’s just you and me in this life I know I’ll be just fine.

Letting Go

I’m here to let you know that I’m letting go.

It’s not that I don’t love you, I will love you until the end of my days .

It’s not that I resent you, you were my blessing in so many ways.

I need to move on and let the past go.

Resentment, loneliness, and depression is all I seem to know.

You’re safe now in the arms of The Lord so please wait for me.

I’ll be there someday and we can finally be a family.

I have to do this now, I have to for me.

I’ll miss you forever and love you for always, my baby you will always be.

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Restless

Sometimes I get so restless waiting for you.
I’m unsure of myself and what to do.

I can’t wait for the day you finally are here.
To save me from myself and my biggest fear.

So prove me wrong and start on your way.
I’m ready for you now I wish today was the day.

Empty Room

As I look into this empty room, the one that was meant for you.
I stare in awe at these four walls, unsure of what I should do.
I don’t want to close the door, on any of my remaining hope.
These feelings I cannot ignore, they are needed to help me cope.
I can’t pack your things away, it is right that I let them stay.
This place may be silent many days and nights, but there will be another someday.
The next will not replace you, for you always own a piece of my heart.
You brought so much happiness in our moments together, in memory we will never part.
I will do my best to continue on and try not to be afraid.
I know you’re looking down from God’s safe arms, where you will forever lay.